simple slow real

I have come to a realisation. I want to be home, I crave home. But so often I am escaping my home. Because it's not what I want it to be...yet. Not right now. But it's not going to get there if I'm not there. Even sometimes when I'm there, I'm not there. I'm peering into others "there" through a small, driveway-cracked screen. I know I am capable of transforming the clutter, the not quite right yet. But it requires intentionality, and presence. Which is simple, but not easy. But possible, and that's where I'm at right now. Believing it is possible to get things to where I want them to be.  When I look at what I think I want in other peoples pretty pictures, I know I have all of that and more here, because it is mine. I don't want their there. I really love mine, but I forget that when I am not looking around my own house, holding my own things. Even if that thing is a broom. This is what it takes to make my house a place we want to

I'm back! I haven't blogged for a few months, one of the reasons simply being the first trimester. It definitely wasn't the worst I've had, or compared to other women's very difficult pregnancies, but the reality of it was still a challenge and an adjustment to a new normal for a time! Summer is generally a busy time with a lot going on, so add to that the disorganisation of doing the bare minimum around here didn't leave me with much (any?) brain space. And the third reason being computer troubles, which made blogging if I had spare energy or time very frustrating..and not worth the energy or time...but those are resolved and here we are! The last blog post I wrote I did a little mind dump of where I am at, or things that are on my mind, so I think I'll do that again to kick off being back! - feeling very inspired to get a morning routine in place. I need to start the day with a few things that I think will have an impact on our family life: s